^^dodgy lyric I know but I think it definitely sums up what I am about to say: despite my cold dislike of me revealing too much of my feelings I feel like I need some sort of support on what I need to do so any help would be grateful.
The fact of the matter is that I am (i think) in love with someone and I'm hitting my head against the wall atm because it's someone I would never have thought it would be. It's not some sort of crush that stupid 11 year olds have but I feel like without this person in my life, a gaping hole would be left in my heart (<<corny right?) and I don't think it would be the same without them in my life. He is, in my eyes, one of the best friends I have ever had, and because of this I am scared...so very scared of how my ambivalent feelings could change this whole relationship we have and ruin it forever. Because the fact of it is that he is amazing. In every way: the memories we have I will always treasure forever and even when we have had arguments (and we've had our fair share tbf) we always feel like we cant stop talking to each other and we need to talk and see each other everyday which I have never felt before and I think it is so special and I don't want to ruin it like I ruin everything special around me...
So any help would be grateful: what do I do?
Tell this guy and hope and pray that he feels the same way and have a go at a relationship?
Or stop being such a pillock and writing stupid blogs and stay as friends?
I have no idea..I am at a crossroads and I have lost my way
Someone please show me the way..
i'd say tell him.
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