nearing the end of a winding road..

Ah June..it reminds us of so many things: Summer, sunshine, the feeling of apathy and the fact that the school year is ending so very soon. Obviously in September we would be feeling anxious about going back, however this year is very different. 

a) End of school FOREVER

b) End of mandatory exams 

So as I look forward to those amazing concepts, and the prospect of university, I want to get all nostalgic and look back on what has happened in these past 7 years...christ, I feel old :S 

So, going to Wood Green, I was apprehensive, yet absolutely terrified at the concept that I was the 3rd of the Britton's going down to high school and would, somehow, do well whilst under the 'guidance' of teachers. Whilst I was a incredibly shy kinda gal, I managed to whip up a lot of new friends who will be in my heart forever, not just because they saw me as a good person, but because of the incredible memories that they've given me. 

A couple of years down the line I went with the wrong sorta crowd, but honestly I wouldn't change it because if they hadn't have treated me the way that they did I wouldn't have known what being treated like crap was and so I knew that I wouldn't want to be that type of person. 

Then a couple of years down again, when I thought I'd never know friendship again, I met a group of such amazing people who took me under their wing and honestly I wouldn't be anything without them. I wouldn't be the person I am now: I'd still be the shy, not confident, meek person that I was in year 7 and I wouldn't know fun and love like I do with this group. They all bring something to the group which is what makes it so perfect and the fact that we're all there for each other is amazing as well which I why I know that wherever we go to University, we'll always be the best of friends. 

This year especially has been extremely hard for me recently but the people who helped me through it are my true friends and I feel like nobody else can touch me because I have them.  

I need advice..

Wow its been a while since I posted on here but ok here goes. 
Life at the moment has been pretty hard. I wont say anymore but I want to say thank you to everyone who knows about why it's been hard and for their support, love and care that they have given me. I appreciate everything that you all do. 


But there is something that I need advice on. 
I've gotten close to someone and that someone makes me feel happy. But whenever I get close to someone I end up messing it up and because of that I'm getting very scared of my actions and what I do. But the thing is, I like this person; a lot. So much that it hurts. It's like they make everything better just by talking to me about anything and everything. I feel like I can trust this person with my life story and every secret that I haven't even told my best friends about. 
But I'm so scared that I'll mess it up. 
So if anyone has any advice: dm/text/fb mail because I'm really stumped at what I should do to NOT mess this up